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Learning is fundamental

Sun Mar 31 2019 - With a family history like mine, I've done plenty of research on Chronic Kidney Disease ('CKD') as well as Polycystic Kidney Disease ('PKD'). But my opinion is that you can never learn too much and the repetition makes it stick.

So when I heard that the Minnesota Chapter of the National Kidney Foundation was hosting an afternoon seminar I was all in.

There were four separate tracks: early CKD, Dialysis, Transplant and Pediatric. I went to the early CKD/New Diagnosis sessions.

The first session was 'Coping with CKD and Sadness, Despair and Fear' led by a gentleman named Ted Bowman. When he mentioned the name of a book he had written, 'Loss of Dreams: A Special Kind of Grief,' the tears started flowing and continued throughout his presentation.

It's what I need to break through now. I need to grieve the future I thought I had and adjust my plans to include the reality of this disease. I need to figure out how to live my life while accommodating the disease instead of living the disease and accommodating my life.
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. - Maria Robinson
Or to quote Andy in Shawshank Redemption:


The second session was all about treatment options: dialysis vs. transplant, in-home vs. in-center treatment, heomodialysis vs. peritoneal. Great information and Abbey Berry from Fresenius Kidney Care knew her stuff cold! The only bad thing about this session was that it was way to short. So much to learn and consider.

The third session on Nutrition really brought home that CKD truly is a personal disease. There are no absolutes when trying to make wise food choices. Everything depends on individual labs as well as presence of comorbidities (two or more chronic diseases). As I've learned, CKD can be genetic (as in my case) or it can be caused by uncontrolled high blood pressure, diabetes and heart disease. It's so important to find a good Renal Dietician (such as Katie Kondziolka RD LD) but the sad fact is that they're hard to find.

The seminar wrapped up with a presentation on Insurance Basics for CKD and End Stage Renal Disease ('ESRD') - in particular, Medicare. All I can say is WOW! So many potential potholes, misdirections and dead ends. My takeaway was to work with the social workers at the dialysis center to make sure you're navigating the waters wisely and take advantage of services such as Senior LinkAge in Minnesota or SHIP/Medigap Helpline in Wisconsin which are staffed with experts on Medicare.

In addition to the great content, the best part of the day was actually connecting with and talking to others that are familiar with the heartbreak and struggles associated with a chronic disease. That was priceless.

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It's a family affair

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It's getting real...

I looked at my phone messages on Monday night and was excited to find a call from the Mayo Clinic. Would they tell me that I had to wait for further deterioration before I could be evaluated for transplant? Or would they tell me to make the drive to Rochester to go through a battery of tests and meetings? It turned out to be the latter. Yay! They're going to evaluate me for transplant in April! Wait a minute. They're going to evaluate me for transplant... Crap. As they say in the movies (?), shit's getting real. I'm trying to stay positive, telling myself that this way I'll be able to get my name on the transplant list as soon as my eGFR hits 20. I'll be able to maximize my time on the list. But every so often, the positivity slips and the fear and anxiety appear. And the questions. All the questions... Will I be able to keep working? Will I be able to afford this? How will this affect my retirement? Will I be able to retire early? How will I pay...

Truth

The need is real! I don't know if it's because prior to Tolvaptan I routinely used mind over matter to delay my trips to the restroom, but I think I'm doing okay these days. Is it possible that I built up bladder muscles over the years? Don't get me wrong, the need to pee is omnipresent. But it's one of those things where I can make note of it, finish what I'm doing (or finish a couple more things) and then make my way to the facilities without the fear of letting things fly. But I'm not stupid. You'd better believe I'm making the restroom my last stop before starting my 45 to 60 minute commute to/from work. A soggy crotch is NOT becoming.

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All I know is that one person lives at my residence (ME!) and I have seven empty five gallon water bottles that are ready to be recycled. So 35 gallons OF WATER over the first 24 days consumed AT MY HOUSE. And that doesn't include all the water and nugget ice consumed at work... or the clear sodas... Actually now that I think about it, I MAY have hit the two gallon a day mark. #feelinggood #hydrated

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